Ignore the previous entry because doing all the chores and homework was just a lie! Haha, told you I'm good at procrastinating. I managed to complete my Maths though yesterday night, and read three chapters through a book and not understanding it because I was too sleepy. I swear I was blinking way too much. More than Mr. Lim I guess? HAHA! Okay, that's very inconsiderate of me. Sorry, sir.
I'm still on my D&T Journal. Mr. Chong called my mother. Complaining that I did not hand it up on Friday. As calm as the ocean, I explained myself and received only a warning and promised to hand it in tomorrow. But I think I won't, 'cause I have yet to buy the A3 paper. Which I planned on buying it with the colour pens, but I was short of money. I should've brought extra money to buy those things, but I didn't, and I'm utterly annoyed to the pits of hell.
Ending school at 3.30pm was hell. Both chores and homeworks are piling up. I seriously need a date organizer, rather than a plain one, so I could at least organize my life well. I'm rushing through things and when I look back, I decided to re-do this and that. It's such a hassle, but if I don't haste things through, it won't be like this. But whatever, I have four hours until it's lights off.
To bestfriend, I know the awkward silence between us is killing you like the way it killed me. I felt as though we have nothing to talk about anymore. I've run out of things to say. You were right, if things wasn't like the way I made it to be, things weren't going to be this way. Of course, it's not whether I want it or not, it's whether we want it or not. Thing is, I want it. D'you want it, Fitri? To tell you the truth, three seconds was never enough. I thought that maybe I wanted to give all these a thought for a few days. But it seems like it slipped out of my mind. Things went different, and it isn't as easy as I thought it would be. I take things too lightly. It's different now, and I think that; Hey, why don't we give ourselves a few more days? It's not easy, and it's better that we do things slowly, starting from now. To add to that, things have broken into a million pieces. We just need time to pick up all the pieces and make it complete, again. Talk is easy my friend, but trust me. This time it'll work perfectly well for the both of us.. if I'm not the only one clapping.
Sometimes, I wish I'll look into Love in a different angle. I have another messed up thing to straighten out. I don't know why I left it that way. I walked away, not knowing how much damaged I've done. If you could give me a chance to prove myself, I'm willing to open my heart to do so too. Because well, it feels guilty not ending something I've once started. To tell you the truth, you've been holding to the key for a long time now. I don't think you realise it. If I could just text you saying how sorry I am, and how foolish I was, I would. But the thing is, I don't have your number. I would like to straighten things out with you, but it's a matter of whether you would open your heart and give me a chance to explain it to you, and whether my words won't fall on deaf ears. I don't know about you, but I've said enough. I miss you, I really do. Especially during the times when...
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