Gone, gone

I suddenly feel that a distance has been made between me, between her. Things no longer the same, and even though I tried to tell myself that it's just normal, it just won't make me feel fine.

Things has been worse. I've been feeling miserable. Someone, that I've been telling random things to, tell secrets to and pass all of my burden to his shoulder, is gone. The person, who knows everything, is gone. It's not just yesterday, it's been days, weeks, months. It's been a year, but I realized it now that he's gone just like that. I wish that.. he's still pushing me on, carrying me and still supporting me, but no. He's just gone. 'Cause he doesn't exists anymore, he just don't.

Things that I love the most, I have to partially give up. The person whom I love the most, maybe.. maybe have to give up what he loves to do most too. I wouldn't like that. 'Cause he do what he has to do, and I love him so much. So much that it hurts, so much that my heart sank. So much, that I have no energy left to look at him. So, so much, so much and so much of hurtful truths.

I've tried so hard, so.. so hard. But things are getting difficult, things are getting so fucked up. Things are getting way over its limits. Too much for me to handle, too much for me to take.