Trust

Back when you asked me to trust you, I gave you my all, I tried to understand you, trust you, respect you as you are. But you seem to throw my trust away. Even though your reactions are subtle, even the smallest things make me lose trust in you.

I am still your friend. And when you told me things you don't tell others, I begin to feel that you're just not worth it. All these while, I thought, maybe if I could give you another chance, maybe we could be what we were. But the time now don't permit us, don't permit me to tell you, and that I am afraid it will be like what it was back then.

But, it doesn't matter now anyway, 'cause you threw my trust away.

I just have one question to ask you : Back when you were with me, were you like this too?

I want to hear what you have to say, but seriously, you just don't matter to me anymore. No matter what you try to say, I won't listen. And if I do, do you think I can trust all those words of yours? Seriously, my impression towards you right now has totally changed. I really did trust you. So much. Now, you've disappoint me, and I can't trust any words from you starting from now. I am sorry, but you were the one who did this.

Back then when I lost trust in you, I was able to gain back your trust because I really loved you, but this time it's different.

I don't know what I should do right now, what I should say right now, but all I know is that you've disappoint me badly and it just hurts me so much. So much that I can't trust you anymore. I just.. feel like I'm being played by you. Toyed by you. All these while, were you like this? My impression of you back then were clean, but now, I see that you're a complete different person. A 180 degrees change. In fact, I really can't trust someone so much just because he looks innocent, can I?

I am going to ignore your sms. Seriously, I will. I don't give a fuck if you're on a tiff with your girlfriend, or you don't like her or whatever, but seriously, act like you have a girlfriend and quit doing those shits. My impression on you have completely changed. I don't care what you're going to think. I don't care if you're going to ask me what did you do or whatnot 'cause I am not going to say what you've done wrong. Because you., yourself know it.

I felt betrayed, stabbed in the back. You lied, you cheated. You disappoint me.